Mamahood Styled



12/07/2012

Week 32

No chalkboard this crazy week. Mirror shot at 32w3d

How far along? 32 weeks
Weight gain: Still at 18 pounds- weird! Probably starting to lose muscle mass because I've been eating tons of junk but not working out!
Sleep: Same ol'!
Best moment this week: NOT having a premie baby at 32w5d! Holy crap! Baby Oliver D Cruz really wants to be born in 2012! I have been having contractions for quite a while now and albeit somewhat getting used to them I had been noticing in the last week or so how much more frequent and intense they were getting. I even blogged about it last week and as soon as I hit my third trimester, stopped my typical workouts. Last Thursday (November 29th) my contractions were on top of each other, 5 minutes apart. I was on the road to my very first counselors' conference in Phoenix. Eek. I wasn't in any pain but did feel a lot of pressure. I returned home Friday (posted pictures last week from the wedding we attended), and on Saturday and Sunday we had a garage sale to have our own little fundraiser. I kept having contractions but not as bad as Thursday. On Monday, I decided to call Susie, our midwife, and tell her what was going on. She asked me a ton of questions but decided I should keep her on-call in case I felt any other symptoms. On Tuesday, the massive contractions were back. I counted over 30 throughout the day, at one point 8 in an hour. 6=hospital. So first thing Wednesday morning I called Susie and told her. She had me come in for a FFN (fetal fibronectin test). She said that 90% of them are negative, meaning that I wouldn't go into labor in the next two weeks (99% accuracy rate). Sweet! She explained that a positive didn't necessarily mean labor time (60% of the time it did). It basically would mean that traces of FFB were found, which is the "glue" that holds everything in place; it starts to dissolve when you go into labor. At 1pm, I got a text from her to call her and while I was teaching, I am pretty sure I said "Oh, shit," aloud because I knew that meant positive. Class ended 10 minutes later and I called Geoff and told him we should 3-way her because I knew it was bad news. And it was. She sent us to the hospital immediately. We both went straight from work and arrived around 1:30pm. By a little past 2pm, I was in a minty green gown, with my very first IV of fluids and antibiotics, a steroid shot for Baby's lungs to develop in case he were to come, and Terbutaline shots every 20 minutes to stop contractions. Well, the 2 doses of that shot did nothing for me except make my heart race harder than ever- I could feel my heartbeat in each of my fingertips! Crazy! Susie ordered an ultrasound as well to check the length and opening of my cervix. A couple of hours later we learned that it was closed and measuring at 3.7cm! NOT labor! YAY!! So excited! We could go home and take it easy! We felt so well taken care of! Our friend was one of our nurses and the head of L&D is someone I know so she even came to pay us a visit! Everyone kept commenting on how tight and tiny my belly is! Felt pretty good to feel in shape at a time like this ;)
They mentioned that Susie probably wouldn't even come by because everything was looking so good! But then she showed up on her way home to check on us- and thank God she did! She said she just wanted to check my cervix herself. She is very anti checking because it can cause complications but something told her to...For the record, getting checked is PAINFUL! I had no idea!!! Way worse than a gyno appointment & those suck! As soon as she got up to my cervix she exclaimed "Oh, honey....!" I was 2 cm dilated (your cervix, NOT vagina- as I previously thought, opens) and 50% effaced (the softening of your cervix to allow the baby to come out). To make matters worse his head had lowered into position and he kept pushing down during each contraction- even had one with her in there. Not good at all. If she wouldn't have checked I would have progressed into delivery by this weekend. If I would have hit 5 cm, it would have been too late for any interventions to stop labor. She consulted with the doctor she works under and came back and with tears in her eyes explained what would happen next:
-We were being admitted into the hospital and going to be started on a different medication to slow down contractions (Procardia). If it worked, I could go home. If not, I would move onto Magnesium Sulfate but could only be fed through an IV and has pretty rough side effects.
-She would have to put me on bedrest, but allow bathroom privileges. Susie had told us earlier that she isn't a believer of bedrest. The Director of L&D told us the same. Bedrest is something of the past because 1. you lose muscle mass/strength which does not prep you for L&D (labor and delivery); 2. It causes financial stress because you use up all your leave and by the time baby comes you either have no income, or are forced back to work right away); 3. It plays psychological games with your mind because you are so inactive; and 4. for women with children, it is the greatest burden. Unfortunately, we went into being a "high-risk pregnancy" and this was our only option.
-If Baby ODCM were to be born NOW, he would immediately have to go to NICU, be in an incubator, we wouldn't get to hold him for about 2 weeks, but we would be allowed to sit by him and touch him. I would get released from the hospital with no baby, and have to visit everyday. Now, keeping it real, this check does NOT have anymore emotional strength to go through this again. My husband is such a miracle in my life. His life is a miracle. I have sat by him multiple times for months on end, not being able to hold him, hug him, and not know what all these tubes mean and if he will even make it. The possibility of our beyond-a-miracle baby going through this, I can't even finish typing...
-So I got admitted into the hospital for the first time in my entire life- well, I guess since my stint at Martin Luther King, Jr. Hospital in South Central L.A. for my birth. We took a dose of Procardia (every 8 hours and another shot of steroids for baby's lungs 24 hours later.
-In the morning, Susie came to check for labor progress. She was happy to report that I was still at 2cm/50% and Baby's head was still low but no longer pushing out! Yay! Contractions had slowed down, as well, although still present, no longer off the chart and on top of each other. This meant that we could go home and start our FOUR WEEK bedrest stay. Oh vey.
-I kept asking if there was anything I could have done differently to avoid preterm labor. Especially with how active I had been. She assured me (every.single.time I managed to sneak in asking in a different way) that there was absolutely nothing I could have done. If I would have not maintained my level of activity, it would have been not good for the baby and I since I was already so active. This made me feel better because I have gotten SO many comments already saying "Oh, you should have REALLY stopped working out!" As if I brought this onto my baby and body. :( It's very hurtful because I did my research, I was encouraged by my initial doctor and two midwives, and I am a professionally accredited personal trainer. I know my stuff. Yet, I get judged and it just sucks. I just want to educate people. Being pregnant in no way means you get to eat fries (yum) and do nothing all day. It has allowed me to be more free with what I eat but health has been my main priority. NOT vanity, although that is my second reason. Whose isn't? When Geoff got Cancer the first time, we changed everything about our health, nutrition and fitness. We were vegeterian for almost 2 years! & we are still primarily vegeterian with occasional meat. I started working out to stay HEALTHY. I got really turned on by the results I would see and became good at motivating others to do the same. Then I decided to educate myself and put myself through classes, research, books, working at a gym, and finally took a one of the toughest accrediting tests in the nation and passed back in the beginning on August. I KNOW my stuff. Despite this, I am a sensitive girl with tons of feelings of love for others, so to be judged, albeit not with any malicious intent, it hurts. I wouldn't change a thing about my pregnancy because no matter what I would be in the same spot (in bed) that I am today. I have never felt stronger, healthier and better about myself than being a fit, pregnant, educated girl. :)
-Today marks my first full day at home of bedrest. I am already struggling emotionally and physically. Of course, a lot of this is selfish and I am absolutely aware and guilty of feeling this way. At least, I'm home. It could be a lot worse. & it's the weekend (the one we took off to be in LA one last time before the holidays for my 7 year old niece's birthday). But at least Geoff comes home today to me and gets to spend it with me. & hopefully, I can work something out where I can work from home and still get paid something. Especially with this hospital stay bill being generated as I type, I am sure. I will do anything in my power to not become a whiny baby myself because I am still very blessed, very lucky and very willing to push forth to do EVERYTHING in my power to keep this baby in. I am determined, motivated and willing. With every ounce of who I am, I will do ANYTHING for this baby of ours.
Miss anything?: :) Work ( I am a workaholic), walking, sitting up, cleaning, organizing, moving. Mainly because I personally feel perfectly fine. It's not like I am sick. Laying in bed is NOT relaxing for me, at all. Doing all of the above is. So it will be new challenge for me (which I do love challenges)! I also really am missing my families. I was SO set and excited to see them.
Movement: Same as last week. Everytime he stretches, it kinda hurts. Especially when he hits my hip. Ouch!
Food cravings: Dessert is always nice!
Anything making you queasy or sick?: Nope :)
Gender: our sweet, crazy baby boy who is ready to play, meet all his loved ones and wear his rad wardrobe. <3
Labor signs: ;)
Symptoms: numb back and achy back, lol! Go figure, took me over 8 months to feel achy and it's because of laying down hahaha! I also feel anxiety with this medicine! :/
Belly button in or out?: In and out! Insane! I finally had to change my belly button ring to a flexible, pregnant one!
Wedding rings on or off?: on
Happy or Moody most of the time?: Happy, relieved, worried, stressed, anxious, grateful, blessed.

I want to especially thank (although I don't think they read this) two girlfriends who were so there this last weekend while we were doing our yard sale. Bre came over and stayed since 6:30am both Saturday and Sunday to keep us company throughout our entire garage sale. For no reason other than being there for us. On Sunday, our friend Leah, came and spent some time, too because she read how bored we were. Sunday evening, she asked us to come over to her house and sent us home with a gazillion things to borrow for our baby (wedge, bottle warmer, wipe warmer, baby food maker, etc., etc., and even bought the baby a swing. Insane.
When we were in the hospital, Geoff decided to keep our closest loved ones updated throughout the process. They were so warm and available for us for anything. We really have the most amazing support group ever. ODCM is sooo loved, it brings warmth to my heart and tears to my eyes. This baby is unlike any other and we all feel it. 
Our friend, Flo, texted and sent some last minute necessities she noticed we still needed. Amazing.
The generosity, friendship, family-ness, shown by these very few individuals will never go unnoticed, uncherished, and will always be paid forward. Thank you to that handful of you who are there for us at the drop of a hat....or at the first sign that we need you without.even.asking.
The little things mean the biggest to us. So beyond grateful for you guys.
Looking forward to: smooth transitions, tying up loose ends (birth plan, nursery, hospital bag, buying all his necessities, etc), keeping this baby bun in the oven!!! <3


Week 32 in pictures!
Rose gold arm candy!
Comfy Christmas at work day! The day I went into preterm labor without knowing!
Cleaning out my wallet- one of my absolute favorites. G&J=ODCM<3

Still haven't repeated an outfit since last year!
More wallet fun <3
Honey Munster at our lonely garage sale!
Baby suspenders!? Ahh!

1. contractions charted- G has better pictures of he bottom far left one where you can see how off the chart it is. Everyone was so surprised by my lack of pain, lol.
2. first ever hospital gown.
3. cuddles in tiny bed with the best husband this girl could EVER want. <3
4. 4am and my lover sleeps soundly. Rest up, Homie, you'll need it ;)
5. Day 2 at the hospital
6. We're home!


Tori Spelling's baby collection was waiting for me when I got home! Baby bum gloves! Ahh!


This would have been my last meal before labor, haha! Pregnant breakfast!

4 comments:

  1. What a crazy week this has been for you guys! So happily Oliver's still in! Plump up, sweet boy! Love you! ❤❤❤

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  2. We love you! Thank you so much! <3

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  3. Stay strong! You got this ;) you should do fancy gift wrapping during your bedrest, pinterest-style and blog on instagram it! =)

    Linda O

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    1. Haha, so true!! Thanks, Linda!! <3

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