39 weeks!

How far along? 39 weeks, 3 days

Weight gain: still at 21 pounds at my 39 weeks appointment but I feel much heavier now.

Sleep: I've been pretty exhausted lately, as in sleepy! It's insane how my body is just.so.tired at this point!

Best moment this week: Knowing that we are so close to meeting our little guy has been really amazing. Terrifying but exciting. I feel that up to this point, everytime someone would ask me if I was ready, I wasn't. I felt more nervous than excited. It has been such a trying week for me. I kept thinking "maybe, today's the day!" I would analyze everything my body reacted to; every pain, cramp, contraction, movement. Everyone who saw me would inquire about when the baby was coming...we tried pretty much eeeeverything short of castor oil to induce our labor!
It has been a lot of pressure that I am now ready to let go of. Last month was all about keeping the baby safe inside. Earlier this month, was about not having the baby on certain dates because I was made to believe it would interfere with others' plans. This last week was about the baby coming because it was convenient for our schedules. I shake my head at the ridiculousness of all this incessant planning. God must be, too. Now, I have come to terms with the fact that just because I was on bedrest for a whole month doesn't necessarily mean that our baby was going to be here the moment I moved. Yes, it did feel this way, but in reality, I gave the baby what he needed at the time. More time to be protected so he could be nourished and grow safely and NOT end up in NICU. My body recovered and kept him where he needed to be. When I got off of bedrest, I took it easy and let myself recover. I didn't go into regular mode until recently and now we are exactly where we need to be. I feel ready. My mind is determined and my heart is full. Also, a pregnancy is 40 weeks long- I don't know why we all push so hard for an earlier date. I have read article after article how babies who go to term (40 weeks) are smarter, anyway! ;) Plus, it is only an estimated due date (EDD). So in reality, we can totally go beyond January 25th. & I need to be okay with that! :]
Miss anything?: Not wondering when this is going to happen! Although, I woke up this morning, feeling more at peace with it all! It will happen when God and Oliver feel that the time is right!

Movement: Some days it's nonstop. Other days, super sporadic. Baby boy has run out of room! 

Anything making you queasy or sick?: morning stuffed-up-ness, but other than that, I have avoided getting sick, which is great! Being congested for so long due to pregnancy does suck though!

Gender: Baby boy!

Labor signs: At my 39 week appointment, I had dilated a bit more and my cervix had shortened- all signs towards labor. I had my membranes stripped again and although I did lose my mucuous plug again, I didn't even have contractions like last week. It's been over 48 hours since it was done, which means that it just didn't work for me. My body and my baby are simply not ready for labor yet. I do feel a lot of pressure from time to time and some aches and pains. I think it's just my body preparing.

Belly button in or out?: goodness, this little thing is all over the place, haha!

Wedding rings on or off?: no swelling (yet)!

Happy or Moody most of the time?: Attempting relaxation today after such a tough week or getting excited then being disappointed.

Looking forward to: Our garage is pretty much done! We have some overhead storage compartments to put up but there's no big hurry to get those up! Our maternity pictures are halfway done and we are just hanging out with each other today. We have spent so much time prepping for our baby boy that now we are just ready to relax and hang out with each other. The love that Geoff and I have for each other is something I never, ever doubt. No matter what happens, I always know and I am assured that we love each other more than anything or anyone else. That love is what has kept us together despite all of the hardships we have been through; it is what created this miracle baby...and it is what we have to focus on today. Because tomorrow, our lives may change forever.

My week in pictures:

I've been keeping a towel with extra bottoms juuuuust in case my water were to break, haha!
I wonder if I'll get to use it!?